Anninos Blog 2

https://youtu.be/se-0RVtnwlM?si=RzGxKlEmP9hEd1ExWell, you will forgive me first because this happened to me many years ago, when I was 26 years old, many years ago and specifically in Chalkida on a ship I was a merchant marine officer. As I was working in the afternoon at 600 to go exactly to the event, to talk about the event specifically, well, I’m finishing my shift and I’m ready to leave. As soon as I approach the cockpit, that is, where the ship is where the crew is and the voice is heard, I hear a help, help. It seems to me that I hear it, I hear it, I don’t hear it, I hear it. I suddenly run with all the panic I had, because when I hear help we all run and we all go. And at that moment I see a sailor who is in the crew is on the edge of the hold about to fall into the hold from a height of 10 m. In my attempt to help him, I fall with him. Well, as I fell, I hit him and he was carried away and fell about 2 m onto some iron rods that we use in infrastructure that are like, like, balls, like that, turned. I fell straight to 10 m as soon as I left that height of 2 m because I had fallen up to 2 m when I was little. Everything I knew and everything I knew about the world, what I had until I was 27, changes completely. There is no more time. There is no dimension. I feel like I’m going to die. I feel like I’m going to die and my life is starting to turn upside down. Well, at what pace, though. Whereas in logic, when you turn upside down, you find yourself in branches of seconds. branches of the second branch I relived 27 years exactly as I was when I was born I remembered everything everything I said everything I did that I turned 66 years old 5 years old, 7 years old, I had everything and even with the upside down that I lived I remembered more fresh the things of my childhood because it was happening upside down that is from the age I was to the child. I knew all my mistakes and at that moment I realize that the speed is too much. That is, the end is coming. That is, I am getting close to bursting, I put all the strength I have in my hands because I realize that I will burst at that moment and my existence ends. And after death what all the question marks we have as humans I had too and at that moment I see in front of me before I burst a demon exactly like the satyrs are at the beginning in ancient Greek vases. So you know his exact shape, I think I don’t need to go into more detail and horns. Who dances and sings around me. Shouting again I say, “Don’t forget that time was 27 years. I had a lot at that time I was alive.” He shouts thief, thief, thief, thief. Indeed, two or three days ago, the ship had chocolates as small as umbrellas on board and we took some. Indeed, I did steal and he was screaming and rejoicing and celebrating that at the moment of my death he had the first piece I heard to blame me of course because then came the end. I say now I’ll see what happens. It didn’t stop. I was fine. When I came to the end I was normal. I hadn’t suffered anything. I hadn’t suffered anything. I felt that I hadn’t suffered anything. I wasn’t in pain either. I was standing up normally. the dimension and volume that a body has when the apostle stands up when he stands up as an apostle with the difference that I am back in the hold the lamp that I have fallen turns and I precisely perceive light. I turn the light and as I turn and look at the light is the form of an angel. Well, exactly as we tell them in the churches. Well, fellow believers, to help you a little, I had no education at all, no religious education at that time . I knew absolutely nothing about the resurrection that Christ and the Virgin Mary only took me to church, but only a few times, once or twice and that was typical. Well, but I understood that he was the angel and in fact I understood that he was also my guardian angel because he looked at me in such a way and with such love and he was the only person from then on that I looked into the eyes. I didn’t dare to see anything else. Because when I went and looked eye to eye, my legs went numb, my soul went numb. All he said to me was, “Don’t be afraid,” he tells me. But don’t be afraid was the most reassuring thing I’ve ever heard in my life. And in the void was a word from me or Are you afraid? I saw him like that, the way he approached me, and the way he looked, and how much he loved me and how much respect he had for me. And that seemed strange to me. Because I haven’t had a good life, so I didn’t deserve such respect, because I imagined that I would experience completely different things for myself, and I experienced them of course, and then we would continue along the way. He tells me not to be afraid, and when he tells me not to be afraid, he tells me that the welcoming angel will come so that we can leave. At that moment, I relax and look at the surrounding area. I am right in the hold. I don’t dare put my body here. It is below. But I grab the body peripherally, that it exists, and I know that I am dead now. We don’t ask for it, I don’t crave it. We are completely in my life. At that moment, when I was thinking about this, I heard the other person who had already fallen and didn’t faint at 2 m shouting, “Apostole, he died.” I killed him. He was saying something like that. Well, I hear exactly like I am a hunter and anyone who is a hunter will understand me. Well, how is a flock of partridges, about a thousand in number, and they rise up towards your feet, you understand the terror you feel. That’s exactly how he felt this movement when the welcoming angel came, who was about two to three times bigger than the prison angel, he had a great harmony of colors, wings, face, body movement, speech, he didn’t say much to me, ready, ready, they both catch me, exactly like that, one comes from here, right, left, and I go through the hold with them. As I passed through the hold, just like we board an airplane, I saw exactly this feeling, just like I boarded the airplane, I saw the hold, my friends, the people who worked, the one who was leaving and going home, the one who was bringing in the cargo, leaving right above, just like a plane takes off, but vertically, completely vertically. Well, I was impressed, I started saying what was happening, what was happening, am I sleeping, am I dreaming, am I experiencing it, what is it, what is it not, is it a dream. I tried to wake up because many times I have dreams, but it was not a dream. And the first thing I hear and am impressed by and I will never forget is that from the point of about 1,000 m, what was being fought over throughout the universe was a hymn that was being sung. These angels who were singing it cannot be counted. That is, one was here and one was in Oonas. An example for you to understand is Evros. The one who was here was saying the Saint. The saint up there continued and I had the perception and hearing and the feeling that I could hear all these millions of voices singing. Then I learned later when I got busy and searched to see if the ones who lived really exist anywhere that they said the Trisagion hymn and with Papakostas who I discussed it you know everything. All I knew from that was and that was irrelevant the thesketikon. Glory be to God and source of peace they said incarnation eudokiya which I had seen in a manger. So I say well I am in a common environment with my mother’s. My mother’s God is good. That’s how I knew. So I was calm. But this continued to be these chants for a very, very long time and my path towards the upward direction continued until I could see the earth in a small state. That is, somewhere here at that exact point everything stopped. We sat together. My mind was seized by a melancholy, I bowed down, my father, my mother, the things we lived or will not live or how will they now understand a new child that they will be told the news that he died. Well, my guardian angel tells me, he says to me, “Do you want to go,” he says nowhere on earth E I tell him, “Yes”. I say, “Let me go, I say, to my mother’s house to see them one last time.” the kinds and this thought also came to my mind. I found myself in my mother’s house within fractions of a second from there and my father, my parents’ house in the living room where I was thinking. The clock was 7:4, everything was real. Everything was exactly as I knew it. That is, as if I was there in my body, as if I had returned. I went to my mother’s house, but it seemed strange to me. Because my mother was not in the house, nor was she in the living room, nor in the rooms upstairs, nor anywhere in the garden that I searched and I looked. Well, I started, as soon as I got into this state, I started to think about what happened and I started to say, maybe I’m dreaming because everything was real. There were no angels next to me, nor anything that reminded me, and I quickly forgot all that I experienced, which I’m telling you, which seems strange to you. At that moment, however, as soon as this thought passed through my mind, I remembered that at some point in my living room, it came to me like an image, because my life came back to me and I knew it, my father had the gun and he always didn’t put a bullet in it. So we knew that he didn’t have a bullet. And the first thing he would say to us when we went, he said, “Take the bullet out, take the bullet out.” In fact, he would kill us if there was a bullet in the chamber. And once, taking my brother and I as children, I went to pull the trigger. He says dad doesn’t put it out of dad’s hands. It was the gun. I say don’t put a bullet in it, don’t put a bullet in it. I went to touch it, to step on it and at that moment something shouted to me, don’t, and I let go of the trigger. That was from God. I understood it at that moment and realized that the terror is terrible. And I went back to where I was. That is, to the traffic police there. As soon as I panicked, I went back there with them. I was leaving here. Of course, I should tell you that I came home to my mother because I had gone to the radishes there that day. Oh, and one more thing that is very important for you to draw some conclusions, just as I drew the conclusions with these is that when I was at home at first until I experienced remembering this situation that scared me, I put some marks because I am a sailor I knew I said if it is not possible for me to be in Chalkida and be here I said maybe something strange is happening and I put a mark on the sun on the day and time in Mousamachi a crack where the sun was passing I said I will check it if I experience something Something told me that I will live, I will come back. I don’t know why I measured this. However, I took the sunlight that was in Mousama the following year when I got well and returned to my mother’s house. I was really there that day. Not that not because I believed it. Because there was no urgency to do it. Yes. The second part where they asked me where I wanted to go, they told me to go see my grandfather’s grave. Well, I suppose that’s where they would put me and that’s where they would put me. Well, I did go to my grandfather’s place. Well, I saw him among the thorns, among the brambles. I say, hey, I started to doubt again. I say, my grandmother is here every day. I say, she takes care of him. How is that possible? I say, I imagine what’s going on, what I’m living, what I’m experiencing now, what I’m doing. I didn’t have time to have my doubts again and as it is, my grandfather’s grave is in the first cemetery, as you enter on the left from the church, in the first few. There used to be, I don’t know if there is a Papakosta now, one in the guardhouse. Do you remember the one that was back there? It’s not there now. It shouldn’t be there now because I went. Yes. There was a gatehouse in which, when I was on the grave, I saw a gleam of gold through there. I approach, I approach. My approach is done in a movement of thought. That is, I want to go from here to there and I go from here to there in a split second. I go and there are bones inside that are so sanctified, guys. that the shine and light they had and even those that were not sanctified were sanctified. Everything that sounded holy about them was in there. At that moment, I panicked to the point of having a Of course, we all know our sins and there is a voice of God from within us. Whether we want to say it or hide it, we feel it. Wow, what have I done, I say. What apology will I give now. I stopped saying such things. Feeling the power of God. Which power of God is, it touches everything. That is, the stones, the wood, all the tombs, the cemeteries, the sky, the earth, everywhere here everything is God. There is nothing that is not God. I see it, I perceive it, I feel it and the more I feel it, the more I beg God with everything I have in my mind that I knew. A few little things, some old sayings, a little I believe. Stop trying to pull out those things that I should have already had as weapons with me at that moment because you need them so much. And in this panic and asking for God’s help to let me not feel so bad because I couldn’t bear to feel so bad. I found myself again next to the angels and asked them to leave me alone, completely alone. I don’t want anyone. I want to be alone. They left me alone and it was the worst part I’ve ever experienced in my life. In a split second I was asked to come to me again. The only thing that’s very bad. It doesn’t exist, it doesn’t exist, you don’t exist. It’s being alone. They tell me where you want to go. Well, I say let’s leave. It seemed strange to them. They both looked at me like that when they said. I always looked only at Angelos. No, in the eyes. I never looked into their eyes again, anything beyond that. Because I looked once and that was enough. Well, as soon as we start leaving, no. Well, the part where I say I’m leaving becomes a steep descent to Chalkida where I fell. I go inside. We go through the church that is located in the metropolitan area, like the bridge that is visible across the street and from there, passing through the sanctuary, a vertical climb, this time again the Trisagion hymn and now without stopping. Nothing stops. On the road, on the route we were going, it was a very, very long time and there were some things that seemed to me. First, the space that seemed black and white and then I learned that it is black and white, it has no color as I saw it. Well, I thought it had lights. These are the rays after we saw it. That seemed strange to me. We were going what I came to ask. It was very beautiful and very peaceful and it was a nice trip. But this journey was audible, it also had voices on some level which as we approached it became more intense and more terrifying and more roaring and more beastly like screams. At that moment when I approach them I see they have approached me while they had me relaxed and they are squeezing me normally to the point where they did it very well. I realized then what I had to go through because at that moment the voices started. The voices of liar, thief, and everything you can imagine began. I don’t need to make a confession sinfully. Human. In other words, everything I did, everything I said, everything I did in my life, our repentance is to be defined and roared. What business does he have to be with you at some point as I was passing by they had me tight at some point they stop there I needed them. Well, no, they didn’t stop, the movement stopped and a voice was heard from a, their forms were like the gormites that children show. The ones here that your children have. They all had exactly these forms, three-dimensional. That’s how I saw them before they became cormites. What you see here in your children, I say in children’s. Well, he cursed the aunts there, there was a panic brake. Big brake. Well, I cursed the aunts and I admit it, and specifically I’m ashamed to say it to our Virgin Mary, I don’t justify it mechanically. Anyway, I did it once in my life, but when I did it, I felt so bad that even though I was a kid and everyone was cursing them, I sat for three or four days and went to the icon of the Virgin Mary and asked for forgiveness and when she forgave me I calmed down because I knew it. The guardian angel tells me that he apologized and God forgave and passed right away. I didn’t stop the thing. It got worse and worse as it went up and the stops became more frequent. They said things that I did, things that I didn’t do and they said things that I never imagined I would do. At one point I don’t get through with anything. When we say with nothing, with nothing. Whatever they say, whatever happens, whatever I do, I leave and these figures pull me through their wings, through their embrace. and I begin to feel that I am being cut off and leaving as a body from this harmonious and harmonious position, harmonious light which becomes darkness, becomes panic, becomes chaos, becomes commotion, I did not want to leave there, while in my life I like commotion, at that moment I did not want commotion, that is why I wanted Gallini to be there, I was sure that she was there, I did everything I could to be with them and her, and I began to say again all the prayers I knew, everything I knew, everything I was aware of, everything I could do this with At least it calmed me down without giving me the opportunity to go inside, but slowly cutting myself off from the angels and taking me and taking me I don’t know where. Great, great journey this is. I don’t know, I didn’t want them to be there. My last words were my mother, my mother and Virgin Mary. As soon as I said the word Virgin Mary, it was the first step I took inside. Oh, as soon as I understood that with the word Virgin Mary you go inside, I didn’t do anything else, I begged the Virgin Mary. Nothing else. As I begged her, they started to go inside and suddenly I started to see wings, light. The wings were like the sun. As if they were matter, as if they were something that covered me. Well, as I slowly began to nestle inside them, the conversation was heard, which covered the entire sky. The widest of the skies. It happened that we were above us with a guard. I felt it as it happened during the psalms. I didn’t dare turn my head. There I told you while I was frozen from my terror and that nothing had left. There wasn’t a single demon, there wasn’t a single scoundrel, there wasn’t anyone to accuse me of anything. I was calm and I stood there thinking that suddenly we were traveling with good again. But this time there was no darkness, but there was light. A light that was to my left and was shining blue. So much light that it was blue. It was blinding. We walked towards this light and for a while we stopped together and they told me some things that I wouldn’t want to say at this moment in this conversation. Well, something that for my life that I see happening to me from above and again I don’t give a damn. I’m asking everyone here to pray for me. Because if you experience such things, it is very difficult to find yourself there again. God wanted to have pity on me. Well, they showed me hell. The light of hell. Everyone goes through there. There is no one who does not go through there. Don’t worry. We will go through it together. The light is there was light, but the light was sick. It was not the blue light that I told you was visible at first. Because now I see another light. Well, I heard figures and people inside that I know from history and we all know from history. Don’t mention names. They were people who are very well-known names and we know them both historically and such, who were there and they told me they heard I knew everything. I forgot to tell you that from the time I fell after and after and I was with the angels my mind, my intellect, my perception and my taste and the feeling of the whole world was much different. I could hear 10 and 100 people talking at the same time. I had this ability. Not to be able to listen to them and draw conclusions in that time period when I could perceive everything. I passed with my head thinking as I told you. I passed with them, I passed slowly. I felt this pain and the numbness that was there and that it really is not for being there, there is nothing there. And just as I started to feel uncomfortable and to arrive badly, I left and found myself again at the point where the light was. We began the journey towards the light. Well, the path was downward. That is, towards that we were going down and down and suddenly the light starts to become more and more to the point that I can’t face it with my mind, nor with my brain, nor with my eyes. And I even put my hands up. But because I told you I was perceiving a body. I was perceiving hands, I was perceiving body and legs everything. And my angel told me I said you don’t have a hand he says. No you can’t do it be patient. He says you’ll get used to it in a while. It’s a little while he says you’ll hold on a little longer. Indeed after a while a light bulb came back on and I found myself in a world like this world. Completely different of course, but it was like this one. Well, some people welcomed me and the first person who met me and welcomed me told me he was your brother. I am your brother. But I know Antonis as a brother and Antonis is alive and was in Drama. I didn’t know I had another brother. But I thought he explained to me that before between you and Antonis I was also and they called him Argyris. He also told me his name. I say, “Don’t worry, you’ll sit here,” he says, “We’ll be together.” He would wait, he says, “be patient a little.” From then on I never saw the welcoming angel again. Only once did I see my guardian angel, who called me to go to the Lord. He told me, “The Lord wants you.” Well, there was one that I learned about later when she asked my mother who was crying when I came to my senses a little and there was another that I didn’t know about at that moment I discovered it up there I saw him there I didn’t know in my life and my mother would never have told me if I hadn’t asked her that if he had a third child the people over there were Well, just like we are, but imagine that I want to go stay, he wants Papakosta to go stay in a house. You would all beg him to go stay in your house. Everyone was like Papakosta, that is, just like you have Papakosta, everyone was a person like that. They were begging me to go to one, to go to the other. In other words, you didn’t know where to go. So much love and so much wanting you for company. I have never met and never experienced before. before certain exceptions here on earth. Well, the world was the world according to what each person wanted to do. They were not in a state of Nirvana or in a state of dead perception, they were living normally. That is, the other one was going to the river. The other one was going to the flowers. The other two were talking. The other one was going normally, in other words, he had the company of people who lived their lives normally, great happiness and great pleasure to come here to do here in this part. The only thing that seemed strange to me was that there were no birds. Well, let me describe the world to you as it was. It is about like here, but the rose is more beautiful than the rose. The leaf is more beautiful than the leaf. I cannot describe it. It cannot be described what harmony there is in But the basic lines are. The ground. The same objects as here. The sky. The sky is not like it is here. It was blue. I did not see it. It changes colors but with red, green, yellow, many people were near water. That is, most of them were and wanted to be near the water. Well, I thought about my grandfather Antonis, who had been forgiven for not seeing him. And because they said that he was a holy man and he really is a holy man, because I saw him there, the priest said so when he dug him up, when he saw him that his right parts were like the box, like the box there, the yellow one. He said that he was the one who led and I actually saw him, I couldn’t see it very much because he had a lot of people with him, and at that moment I accepted the first award and he tells me that Mr. Pao wants to see you so that we can give an approximate perception of the space so that you can understand what I’m experiencing, imagine those of you who have been to Italy, the colossal 5-10 times bigger with crystal clear, white marble with transparencies, with every masterpiece that exists as a volume. I’m in one after the other. He leaves me since then, my guardian angel has not seen him again and I wait in line with the line that passes through. One by one, one enters, the time he enters in a split second, it sounds exactly like, forgive me, I’ll say it. How a goal is scored. How a grandstand shouts a goal and celebrates. That’s exactly how they celebrated in a split second in the p enters the second one was late again celebrates just like a goal and when it’s me to go inside I see the Virgin Mary for the first time she speaks to our lord I don’t have him the lord is in the purple as it is in the one she wears in the extreme humiliation in the epist the stif yes the bridegroom E and his hands I could see that they have wounds. Say since then we realized, we crucified it, we did it. I stopped seeing such things to feel. But basically my own sins torture me I didn’t have that much spirituality because I knew everything what I did with the fact that I go inside normally. And the Virgin Mary says to him come forgive the child they are all like that is what it is. She speaks now for me I know she intercedes constantly. I see him she hears her, but He hears her like this. But Panagia insists, come on, everyone, that’s how it is. It’s not give him and him. Leave him and him. And I’m right in the middle of this whole thing without walking or passing by. That is, as soon as he spoke, I was there. As soon as I was there, needless to say, they’ve knelt down, I’ve fallen down. What can I apologize for, what can I say? I didn’t even lift my head to look. Not even from the side where the Lord was, he was right in front of me. It was the 12 apostles and the apostles. Nothing, the only conversation I heard, you didn’t even say our name, one of the apostles said. Wow, even greater panic. Saints began to speak to me, whose names I knew even without having ever seen them. And they didn’t do anything to me other than give me courage. Because I almost died once again over there, but there was no death from my food. Saying many many things now from here on out I have some things from which I have gaps in this part something like that. I think Saint Nektarios said to me, “Do you want to go back”. I heard this conversation in this panic and I said “Yes”. As soon as they said it, everything that I saw stopped. Everything disappeared and I found myself back where I was, where I told you where the Angel told me, “Come, the Lord wants”. I have not understood anything what is happening to me. I am sitting here now and I am saying what is happening. But I liked it because I returned to where I wanted to be. So it did not concern me. I wish you would leave me here. It is perfect. It is good here too. Well, as soon as I found, as a new person comes to a house and a new winner and all the neighbors are in joy, everyone around me is yellow. They were here with us. Here with us. I had already been there. I’m also sociable. It’s easy to make friends. Well, but it seemed to me that I saw a bird because like I told you there were no birds. I say no, let’s say a bird, I say what is that, friend, because there was someone right next to me. I say, “What is this I see? Oh, he says very naturally, he tells me a carriage,” he says of the prophet Elijah, he says someone will leave here, he says he will go to the other world, he will come back to me, he does it very naturally, I’m sorry, but I’ve lived it, do you believe it, do you not believe it, I’ve lived it, and I go now, I see it, I see it, I see it. I say where is it going, who is it going, who is it going to, who will leave, virtue, lucky one, let’s just start and I did it and I went and hey, who’s saying it in front of me. I’m here, the door is open without a bottom, the carriage tells me, come on, you’re leaving, I heard the voice. I go inside, there’s nothing on it either. There is only one carriage, nothing. No horses, no prophet Elijah, no carriage, as it starts, it now leaves at a speed of space, I see it and it disappears, and I start and I’m afraid, I say, what is this, bottomless, I see it leaving somewhere, think now on a bottomless plane, but I say, what to die, you are dead, don’t be afraid, seriously, I thought about it, after it continued all this way towards the exact place without passing a tolun, without passing anything. But passing all the hundredths of the universe to the earth. That is, a very long return journey. We are talking very, very long. No, we are talking about a short period of time. I arrived back exactly above the ship as I had left. At that moment, I return to my body. Wow, wow. The hardest part, that is, I can compare it. I have something that I can say so that you can feel what I felt. Imagine that your hand has a leather glove and you wear it your whole life. For a moment you take off the glove and you feel the hand, the touch, the sensation and then you put the glove back on. You put it on. It’s hard to turn your body around. The body hurts. The pains started to come. It stopped working. At that moment I feel like I’m going to tear myself away. If I didn’t love my mother and my father and my brother so much to turn around, I wouldn’t have gone in. It took so much pain to get back in. But I went in, at that exact moment I found myself lying exactly like that, just like my body was and I felt right here, completely numb, hearing a crack crack crack crack crack and raising my vision level in the blood that had a pool. In other words, my blood, as soon as I woke up, now I wake up and it rises and I see it like a mallep. At that moment I’m there and I hear the Simona is screaming. Help, help, help. It didn’t take long because the hold opened, they found me. So they started, pulled me in and took me to the hospitals. Well, in the hospitals when I found myself, well, when I entered the general state hospital for the first time, for the first time I saw men like you and women like you crying when they saw me. My face was so bad. I mean, there wasn’t even the courtesy to have some formality that I wasn’t so bad anymore. Of course, I wasn’t afraid of death anymore. I’m sure I’ll live. Well, I was sure that I would now how much with one eye if I could see if I was inexperienced like that, I didn’t know and I didn’t care to tell you the truth. The only thing that interested me was, thank God, I haven’t had anything happen to me. Everything came back very quickly. In fact, in 1.5 years I had forgotten all of this and I didn’t even believe that I experienced it, but I believed that it was a fantasy and such a post-traumatic experience until I started to deal with it. Well, going to church a little, with the help of Papakostas and I saw that all of this is real and that what I experienced and saw, our church has been saying for centuries. This. Let me ask something. Yes, of course. Well, all that you experienced, well, until they came to find you, you were living all of this in parallel for another 27 years, I don’t know how long I went and came. Yes, that’s what I’m saying. Yes. And how long did it take? How long did it take me to find you ? And how long did they find me from the point where we fell, about 10 minutes. Oh, that is, all that you see? All that you see was 10 minutes. Why do you say that it’s like you have 40 days, let’s say all this. What 27 years did I tell you I lived only by turning. No, I went and came back that time doesn’t count. All this was close to 6 7-8 minutes until they found us. Why because the help heard it and others. Open the door. Yes. Not that. Yes. Why they say they say that the soul turns inside the turns let’s say 40 days. But I don’t know what they say. I’m saying what I’ve experienced. I’ve read. I’ve heard that. But I don’t want to because if I’m going to confuse, don’t confuse any story and it’s very heavy for me to say something that is from a poem of my imagination. I have to say what I’ve experienced. Have you said these things to a scientist or a professor at a university? Yes, of course. The first part I have a cousin psychiatrist in Kolonaki, the exarch Manthos. The first part I filmed is that it was a ghost. I didn’t believe that these things existed. I thought I imagined them and in a nice magical way. I made up a story. Who told you that I believed I didn’t believe that these things were made up by my imagination I believed. No but you had evidence. You had a sign at home. Yes. The next year, a little bit. Don’t think so. I’m ashamed to say it. You keep believing them. You think you might not have experienced them. Well, you’re very easily fooled. It’s not that I’m ashamed to say it, I’m talking about myself, but you always have your comments. And in fact it’s not allowed. As I grow older of course and as my age goes by and I discover that these things are stable and are standard, of course I believe them. I can say that I believe in God a little bit yet. I haven’t reached a point because whoever believes is not afraid of anything. So. So. No mission or death and that you saw him and ahead two questions one you missed that you woke up Yes Oh I’m scared now lest I never find myself there again don’t dip me in the customs a second time I will pass that is to say I wouldn’t want me not to live that is to say not to come to life again since after I asked for it I asked we have it I had it in the first place at that time I asked for it I wouldn’t have passed something I felt that it wasn’t going well I didn’t feel it well I was afraid Now you regret that you said to live. Because you will never regret living No it wouldn’t be or we live regret the Virgin Mary and the angel that you saw today are as we see them in Exactly as they are in the pictures. Exactly. Let me ask you something. When you went to hell, did you have the feeling that the hellish wanted to be there, they wanted to leave? Did you have a feeling that they were being tortured? Who wants to be tortured? I can’t I can’t have the perception you have the rise of Napoleon what feeling they saw him screaming suffering suffering example to mention something Yes What to What to I didn’t like him He wasn’t well he who was well I saw the other I saw in such a one who was in joy for happiness and the other was in pain and screaming and couldn’t calm down with anything is there a way to help him I don’t know I’m not real I I told you my experience I and I are looking for the same questions we have. Don’t think I have the same questions after deaths the church holds our memorial services. Yes father talk about them because we don’t know the last moment of the expiration the repentance of people and that’s where the church collaborates with memorial services, with the srantalitugas, with alms. All this in the name of our man is gone because we do not know what was played out in his soul even at the last moment. The main apostle lived this experience and was given the opportunity to return back. But he did not put a mill. He did not put a mind. Do you believe that everyone has this opportunity No. No. It was something to be done for us, probably. Well, so that we can hear them today. Maybe so that he could hear them and hear them today. Well, of course, the pain that the apostle had, which he does not remember, if I am wrong, tell me, I do not remember, in the hospital he was shaking very much. Oh, yes, he says he was moaning so much that even the sick wanted to leave the hospital for 15 days. Let’s just say we don’t give up. The part was very bad. Returning to the hospital was very bad. I couldn’t do the whole part. The doctors and those who came in and saw me all told me they were normal neurosurgeons because they fell on me. At first they almost abandoned me outside the morgue. I came in dry. But they put me in. They didn’t think there was a chance I would live. They had me left outside in a corridor until 2-3 and they were waiting for someone to come and they put me in. They simply notified my cousin, the one I call the exarch, who I told you about when I found out and he came and put me in. But really, when I realized during the one or two hours that I was rolling around from the pain and all that, and that they realized that I hadn’t suffered anything in my brain. Why did they put me in the CT scan because they said he’s finished, now I know we’re opening the whole workshop. and then he came and the whole hospital was shocked the whole hospital was shocked we’re talking because they realized that it’s not possible he has a normal brain the issue was that my brain hadn’t had any blood we’re talking about a broken jaw four eight pieces in the zygomatic bone you put me back together with a photo so you can understand there was no face so they could have a basis to do the resections and a photo with the whole and all The wing piece was there and he was coming to see me saying the doctors that Lazarus is there and not the Apostle. Like that. And he tells me and they tell me he won’t call me again they call me Apostle your name is Lazarus from now on because the doctors believed and there were no teeth. Nothing when we talk nothing nothing there was no face. All this with 10 m with the head and hands what will be left you don’t understand I break everyone so all these teeth are serpentine. Everything everything everything. There is nothing that is not false about me. Everything is with supports, with such, with Yes. I have irons inside, everything. Everything. You assume that this pain you felt on the return was the physical pain of his or her soul. It is that we had learned to be in the well-being and happiness of a body that does not hurt, that can be happy, can be joyful and feel complete bliss and to be in pain in such a terrible opposite. The soul might react soul re-entering the body and you felt this pain. The soul did not want to enter the body. The soul wanted to leave to return to where it was. The soul even if it was. I don’t want to go so much body. You didn’t risk it though. Here you go. You didn’t risk it. Well, we always have our choices in life. At that moment, I made that choice. Did you see your body? To be small with the corner of my eye. When I told you at first you didn’t dare. I didn’t dare. I didn’t dare to know a lot but that Yes. I felt it. I saw it. I saw it with my peripheral. You can see with the peripheral that there is something here. Of course without turning to look at it. Apostle which sin do you think of those that are called what what stopped me that is which yes which are very is very difficult no no that the devils who are looking for to generally my opinion I can say it go opinion egoism from there doesn’t pass in fact it doesn’t pass based on one night at 12 midnight I plastered and he came to confess him No We’re not going now. Okay let’s do it nicely. He did my house. But he came. He gave up everything and came and confessed to me. I wanted to ask about the signs you said at the beginning at home. 1 and a half years later, something happened to him. Then I started to find myself, as the lady said, the first part, which of course don’t think I forgot about it, after 1.5 years, I just got over it. I don’t want to think about it too much because it didn’t bother me much because I wanted to see my life as a young man and the rest because other people called me these fantastic things, and when I said it, I didn’t dare to tell anyone. These were completely secret things that I had experienced and I didn’t tell anyone. My best friend told me that once, E, who happened to be the driver of the despot of Kalamaria, and he mentioned it to him, don’t say a word, he told the despot and the despot came and found me and took me in the car. I told him again as I’m telling you. He didn’t talk to me at all. I’m telling you, despot. He tells me everything he says is true. The first question mark I had in my life was this. Then I started looking for it too. If it’s true. Indeed. After how many years did I start looking for the truth about the house, how many years after 1 and a half years, two years when I was in Thessaloniki it was still fresh, that is, and I was talking about it with my best friend, I told my best friend, I didn’t tell anyone else, one of my best friends I had five or six best friends and one of them said it there and did it, it didn’t bother me, he told me whenever you want to come and do it, I didn’t want to know that these things existed, now we’re talking about myself, I completely forgot about them, I got to the point where I don’t remember them at all, to know them. Not that I don’t remember them, I’ve never forgotten them. To know them that they are something or we’ll forget them in history. And once in a memorial service it started when I was outside smoking a cigarette while the service was being held in such a memorial service and I heard the Gospel from outside that said about the sower. For the first time I realized and I say where did it fall what what do I do and then I came and found Papagiorgio first and then Papakosta. There I stopped to ask you something your brother that you said that you say on Argyris there was a baby that I caught and I walked over and he had the prom No they didn’t baptize him from what my mother told me and although he had a name for her he still had a name but the name that they would give him if they baptized him was aerovase arovapa they would put argyri they would put argyri but send point point where Argyris and the rest were there where it was very nice that you said that the waters mainly went ktalp katalp. Well, that point was heaven. No, that’s how I felt. That’s why I wanted to go back because I don’t think it wasn’t something like a vestibule. Like a vestibule. That’s how I felt too. Yes. Indeed. No, it wasn’t and that was enough. Heaven was. Heaven was, but I felt like something bigger is heaven. I felt it. And all those who were there because here and all all all those you saw in the vestibule were waiting, I know. No, they weren’t waiting for judgment. They had already been judged. They were living there. They were living there. The people in the vestibule had their lives normally. Normally there. So there will be some levels. Oh, I don’t know about that. Not if there are far or near. Level. Levels. Levels. Yes. There are too many. Whoever there are, there are Whoever was close to God was bright. It was clearly visible. These were levels of heaven. Yes. The Virgin Mary sits on her throne next to her son. The apostles roam around the throne of Christ. The great martyrs have another level. The martyrs who are not a single candle in one place. Nor so on. The levels of heaven are different. It is all heaven. Of course, I had heard another experience about this antechamber, which antechamber we found out were children who were there from abortions and unbaptized, but who lived in this space saved because they did not have the opportunity. They did not have the opportunity, as if with their own self-exaltation, to ask and this is the prophecy. It is not the kingdom of heaven which is the greatest that will be after the second coming. The paradise that the great martyrs, the holy saints, now live in is paradise. But what is paradise, since both Adam and Eve lived in paradise and why did they live? To reach the heavenly kingdom by reaching the likeness. The antechamber says it is above heaven for eternity which will open after the second coming because what did the thief say to the thief the Lord said to him today from today onwards what is the future kingdom in heaven no it is the future kingdom in heaven you will be with me because the future kingdom will open at the end after the end and for this antechamber I have heard various escapes that are people who were saved at the last minute, repented at the last minute, lived children of abortions, children who were not baptized, who did not have time to be baptized that is to say with the deaths they did not have they could not act their own will and free will. Now you believe that you saw these things, you did them and even if I want to forget it I cannot. I have been trying for so many years to forget them. You want to forget them No to God. My life seems like I’m forgetting them. I’m not living a good life. Not when I should normally. And in fact, when I first discussed it at the monastery in Papaphilippos with Saint Macrina, she said to me, “How can you see with such responsibility?” then I realized. From behind when he entered the Lord’s time, the beginning was heard for you, the one you heard for others, that’s why he was afraid, it wasn’t heard, the beginning wasn’t heard, otherwise because I was afraid if it was heard elsewhere, I would be a goal, it wasn’t scored, that’s why he made the decision, Agiostaris made a suggestion, I didn’t hear the beginning, and maybe the gentleman gave me a second hand, and I hope like the priest at the last moment, you don’t tell me you’ve read the book, Return from the Other Life of a Russian, I don’t want to read anything because after time, if you ask me again, I don’t want to get involved with stories, I don’t want anything, I don’t want to have anything else to do, I don’t want to, because maybe as time goes by, you ask me after years and I don’t have at least to be clear in my mind, that I haven’t read anything else, what I’ve heard from Pakostas and those, not to be able to tell, because the mind can play games, it can also use imagination, and I don’t want to, I’m sure it’s playing something else, I’m trying to be as clear as possible, to adulterate it. not to adulterate it yes and it is easily adulterated for how it is how it is couples to arrive because the job of scientists is to extinguish the church and by default if now today a scientist was here he would tell her that you are lying. I have many scientists. It is not once and twice. You could tell him what I do not want to convince him. I am not interested in convincing him. It does not concern me to convince him. It does not concern me to say it. I do not have and I do not have the calling to convince him myself. I will tell him what the scientist will try to analyze with logic. Logic and faith have no relation. It has no relation. This does not mean that one doubts the other however or one negates the other. Because we will see many faithful scientists who reach the point of their usual science and from there on they say from here on out God has. But when the selfishness of science enters and the scientist is not a scientist but an egoist A scientist cannot keep up with anything else. Except with egoism which is poor now these are up to a point because God reveals what science discovers it was unthinkable let’s say to think a few years ago that a woman could conceive an example in vitro and bring children into the world it was unthinkable today it is permissible and how many other let’s say diseases that have passed and recently in the recent past that today are treated with a pill, with a vaccine, with a this. God allows the disease a few years ago now our fathers lived. It has reaped people and people, children, very many. And yet today a vaccine, a this and the old emesis what was this was to the pore is nothing. And I would like to say something, sorry my father, a little so I don’t forget it. The time I came to my senses and went until the time came to count the first sign to panic with my logic, my logic told me that you imagined it and let it go and don’t talk about it. I covered it up and threw it under the rug. But for a year until I saw the sign, I couldn’t do anything sinful. I didn’t have the luxury. That is, not even an obscene spectacle on television. I was rolling around like a baby without having a problem not looking at the obscene subject. That is, I necessarily couldn’t do anything bad. I couldn’t lie. I couldn’t do it for a year without making a special effort. It happened on its own and by telling myself again that you imagined it, you imagined it, you imagined it. And speaking with my cousin Manthos, who said to me, “Stop talking, it will be good for us in the balances and not much opened them and says he believes and he is in another phase I think now. Another father how can I convince my husband that what the main apostle tells us today is true his problem his prayer drink that is his problem in the sense that I will say the phrase do not drink me do not even drink me that is and convince me you do not convince me it is not a matter of convincing you for the two examples I am going to go down in full I mentioned many times like that for some issues with deaths etc. Today I brought you a dead man here resurrected. Well, he says, the Pharisees said, if you come down from the cross we will believe you. A short time ago Christ resurrected Lazarus four days in four in the tomb and He said to him, “Lazarus, I cannot come out. What does this mean, Lazarus, come out? You know how the dead man of the Jews is wrapped in linen cloths. How are those linen cloths called linen cloths? The linen cloth that they wrap him in, as our mothers used to tell their children, has myrrh, aloes, and some other perfumes that water the body and close it with these gauzes, the bandages. Even the head and the face. When these dry, if you go to peel them off, the skin and the flesh come out together. They do not come off the flesh. From the flesh. It is inconceivable that it should come off. Now it was in Jerusalem, these were the details with the aloes. When Christ says to us, Lazarus, come out, the linen cloths fall off like pieces of paper and Lazarus comes out, four days old. The same sisters Martha and Mary when they went and told them to open the tomb the sisters do not want to see their brother and yet what do they say to him Lord it already smells already it smells it is four days old why should they open it let’s say the Lord says come Lazarus out and Lazarus comes out you want hidden behind some rock behind some oven and he came out to pray the Lord and Lazarus lived like the apostle a good time to live 100 years. Lazarus lived 101 and became bishop of Cyprus the city of Larnaca in Cyprus is called Larnaca from Larnaca of Lazarus from the tomb of Lazarus of Saint Lazarus which is in the homonymous church in Larnaca of Saint Lazarus. A very beautiful church. In its basement is his tomb. Let’s go and worship Saint Lazarus. And how many years did Lazarus live from then on? Two characteristics of Saint Lazarus. One that you mentioned. First, he never laughed except once. And when he laughed, his sisters made a feast for his friends. and he said public Lazarus after being asked why he laughed. Do you know why he laughed? He saw a man stealing a pitcher and he says the pot steals the pot. The soil steals the soil and that’s why he laughed. He also didn’t eat food without sugar because he had the feeling in his body of the mortality of the soil from death. We have incidents that the Jews lived through every day. And yet since they thought they were done with him, we crucified him, he died, he dies over there wherever he is he will die they said up there if you come down from the cross we will believe you. But here the other one he raised four days later. He couldn’t get down the cross. Here the others the child of the woman of Nain. He took him twelve years old and gave him to his mother. The ten-year-old daughter of Jael. He raised her he says give her to eat. A while ago they were calling her dead. And yet they did not believe. That is why today whoever does not want to believe, the only thing that dominates his thoughts is his own selfishness and the fact that he is trying to pretend to be blind so as not to disturb his life. Nothing else is a matter of selfishness. The humiliation of putting ourselves down and saying where am I going. Maybe the church is right one in a billion. I will not eat in a million. Maybe one in a billion the church is right and I am going to hell. Tomorrow we die one by one. Where will I go? The apostle left suddenly, he had the grace of our Virgin Mary and returned. If he waited, I will not have the goal. We will score a goal for us or I will score. They will score a goal for us. Maybe Maybe finally this note because the last moment of his life was the moment he went to save another person. The last moment of his life was difficult because he died, but the last moment of his life was given the opportunity to come back and correct himself. Yes. That’s what I believe. Because he expected it to be a sacrifice. It was a sacrifice but it had no content. And that and Otar might have had the ability to turn me around to tell me to go back. He assured me that his prayers at least from within the other the situation he was in. That is, they were improving it. That is, the name of our Virgin Mary. The name of our Virgin Mary is the widest of the heavens. What does it mean? She is the owner of all the heavens. Wherever you find the Virgin Mary, call out how we go to a neighborhood and say we know someone named Barbayonis, where is the house? That is it. Wherever you come to the sky where the widest is, you will find the widest because it also didn’t impress you that he says that whatever you look at is God and the stones and these are the omnipresence of God. Apostle, let me ask you something. The apostle Paul will believe that he went to such and such of heaven and so on until the end and there are things that are not said. You feel some things that human language cannot express. You cannot express them. I said this at the beginning. You cannot express it. You cannot express either the color or the blue. Here the blue is this. There it is not blue but it is I don’t know what it is. I cannot say it. You feel it is blue. You feel it is an emerald. It is a diamond. It is It is heaven. It is God. What is everything how do you say it? Do you still go there and like it because you say that people lived, let’s say it had houses, it had a house. Yes he had a house he had. Yes he had a house he had a house. How did they live these were families. I can’t describe them. No they weren’t families. There wasn’t anyone There wasn’t this woman the child. It’s all there were no women to deal with. No no. There was everything everything normal. As we are here, as we are that is they can be as we are here at any time all together so I speak the lady speaks this here wants to isolate someone they would go to their house they wouldn’t be in society with others they would want to be alone families but the families were the families that I found when I was there they all wanted to take me into their family they were all families there was no family we were all family the gurus all you knew all all all more than My dad and mom I loved the one who was next to me. Yes. He had all ages. No, the ages were very specific. One age was one age. Yes. Everyone was young. Everyone was young. Young. Yes. It is said that it is the age of Christ 33. Well, I will tell you another experience quickly of another person I met who died and was resurrected and came back to life and died again. Otherwise, we brought him back. We can do it now. Anyway, the second time he scored a goal. He didn’t come back. He didn’t come back. I’m talking about the father of Ftelia. You know him, yes. You are the one who died in 1972, Father Agis. Father Agis signed for his death, the doctor Sotiris Hazivassiliou from Doxakos, the one she was acquainted with, left and Father Isaac came back. While Sotiris was in the room over there, Papadia and some others over there appeared to Patrsaki. He told me, he has them noted down and he was reading them in a small diary, that he told me that I went there, he has his own description and I met my father, he says, and he says to me, “Issac, what are you doing here?” Well, I came. They brought me, I came. He says, “We weren’t notified that you were coming. How did you come? You should go back.” I say he came and I want to see where my mother is where are my mothers where are my mothers he had two mothers the mother who gave birth to him and the mother who assigned him so where are my mothers he says they are down here but you can’t go over there here together and the two of them are together I have them but you can’t go over there how does he say since he came he says I want to see them it’s not possible and he says here is this gate he says it’s further inside but I went out he says for a while that’s what we’re saying you know I went in the door I went out again and he came out I’ll go over there again. So you can’t go there your father used to tell him. No, I’ll go he says. And I do he says go in he says towards the gate and I see he says a hand and he says he’s not ready. He’ll come back. and he went back inside the coffin as it was and I did he says like this a backward movement he usually puts his hand here behind when they are lying down and he sees, Sotiraki, what are you doing, Sotirakis, where is he going, go away, Storaki, Sotirakis, the poor man, he had to tell it, so Soti, the father, I remember from him, this phrase tells me that we were not notified that he would come. But at what age was the paterisco, the peta is not, no, it was not, I don’t remember. I can’t assign ages, but if in 72 the patersak was born in 25, 26, 27, 25, 50, he would be 50 years old, he died in there at 70-75. How long did the father die, he was a priest when he died in 94, he died in 94, and even a priest, and a priest in pain, yes, okay, you have him close to the father, he was the papavros for many years, yes, we have it there too, but we don’t have to go there, we have the story of Papastavros. We do it this way. A memorial for the Papastavros we loved so much from Crete who fell from the roof of his house. He was unbaptized, he was crawling and fell and was killed all day in the cassock they had and his mother remembered in the afternoon, the cross that he had that her mother had told her, her stepmother, who had inherited the Holy Cross from the monastery of Arkadiou and Arkadiou from Neronacho and it went from generation to generation. So Papastavros’ mother remembered the Holy Cross that her stepmother had told her whatever you need whatever it is you will ask for from the executioner’s Cross. He never left us. and he went and unhung the silver case that was inside the honorable cross and put it around her neck and he went and took the dead body of the child in the afternoon At dusk all day long these bells had become a commotion in Rethymno and he took the baby and held the dead baby in his arms and suddenly the baby started crying and they baptized him at the time when Zeus was about to be born. He was baptized Papas Stavros and the name was given to him Stavros and he succeeded the father Stavros succeeded his mother. His mother from then on the children were in pain, they beat the children, small, big, they would cross them and they would get well and they would fall. Just like when they cross their hands and feet, they would get well, they would fall. And when Father Stavros was about 20 years old, he became a priest. His mother entrusted the Honorable Cross to him as a priest. Father Stavros took the Honorable Cross and came to Agionoros and fled to the desert of Mount Athos where he met Father Ephrem of Katounakiotis. A great figure of our century. A great gifted figure. And he told him the characteristic of this holy cross is that it sticks wherever it finds a subject. It can go all over the body and stick somewhere and be vertical, it sticks and does not fall while it is a little heavy. And he told him while there are very many honorable crosses. How does this have this characteristic and sometimes it heals, sometimes it blesses, it sticks and passes it many times and then at some point it comes off, it passes. And since Father Ephrem says, he told him, we will each be locked in a cell separately for three days. And after three days of prayer, Father Ephrem decided that this part of the cross is bathed in the blood of Christ. It has a stragoza. You have the blood of Christ and because of that, what happens happens. Let’s say these things in memory of Father Stavros who left us in the spring. Finally, what happened to the cross? Yes. That’s what I’ll ask. The cross is now in the possession of the presbyter and I think she places it once or twice a week in the Metropolis with a specific priest appointed by Father Stavros. I learned this recently. But not officially from some of my spiritual fields that I went to. He didn’t talk to the elder or to other people who aren’t close by. I’ll do it soon. I’ll tell you at some point, but this is how I open the time. And so we go to the executioner Stavros, they take him to the metropolis where this priest crucifies those who want to go. Of course, this happens, as you understand, with prior agreement. It’s not like we make the decision to go to Papa Stavros and we go and whatever time it is, Papa Stavros should be at Stavros’ house. Because Prtsimi Vytera is also old and sickly. He has a lot of health and so he simply has the cross, the priest in charge was appointed by the partner Stavros and I think I have him in my mind like this photo from the funeral, this priest, an old man, so very good, the parathia, how was he always called that because he was so competitive with Papastavros and we must have some relatives from what I remember. Something else, can I ask. Well, apostle, did you have angels, you had only seen these two, the angel, your guardian angel and the welcoming angel and the rest, how did I see billions, they were in heaven. I saw them. I told you when I left the ship at the beginning and I was leaving upwards the space that is from the 1000 m from the ship let’s call it elevation up to the point where I saw the earth exactly as we look at it in the sky so I did everything but I saw it in 3D I really did exist there were billions and I didn’t just see at the edge up there I saw until the end of the universe in his voice I could hear a voice speaking here and a voice speaking there. Sela. No. From the prologue you saw. No. All of this together. Yes. Millions that is, there was no. It cannot be caught yes images. Thousands of billions not all full. What color will the light concern. What color will the white like it is in the church like exactly this white the angels that are made with this white. We will wing it. Yes. With wings. That the devils were far from them. That is, there were no devils at all in this part of the devils. I saw them from the point where I passed and I started and I heard the groaning and the toll booths, let’s say a point. Then I learned that they are called toll booths. Then I learned all this. At that time I did not know what they were called. The toll booths were located after a while and before you approached the light that is the Lord. There you were afraid of them. Oh, you were only afraid of them. That is, you had the Saint next to you. That is why I say. What are you not afraid of again? What should you not be afraid of? Time seemed to you a lot, as time at the toll booths, Vasilyptos, you are not caught the most difficult part of my life is this was big Yes it didn’t stop don’t look where I went I had to say sins one after the other everything I did and everything I did I stopped and the angels gave an apology for me not me the angels spoke for me not me and said things that I also forgot or I didn’t have the perfect city to answer like that because of spiritual clarity. They said he did this he did that there they said there he did that he did that they talked so that we wouldn’t get into this mess this stopped it was happening. The different ones had the form of those we know from the icons. No. Yes. They also had the form of the icons that is. Well yes yes yes exactly. These are more more more similar to ancient mythology. I saw more of the disrespectful ones there, more of them, but the ugly forms, those that control you for prostitution, those that control you for such things, had forms just like they are in these bodies, there were other forms that are modern now that we see them, something that we have horns, something with a tail, something that TV shows, yes, but not with that sweetness, eyes and teeth, faces and crazy feeling, no, we talk like we see them on TV, imagine this in your house. I won’t tell you anything else. You will become a monk the next day. The next day, so that he can leave when he can leave. But you have a way ahead. Well, I am lucky for some things. We are all lucky to have Papakos. He says life. You had a confession once. Well, there you go. Before it happened, when it happened. No, no. I had nothing to do with the church, daughter. None, none. None. I had gone to church with my mother a couple of times until I was 27, nothing, and that was forced, come and come, come and so on, you all declared yourself a Christian, this is it, you declared yourself a Christian, this is it, yes, I told you, when I was a kid, I cursed the Virgin Mary and asked for forgiveness, I had it inside me, I felt it inside me that I was not well, I knew that I was not going well on my path, I knew it regardless of what I said, all these are fairy tales and they do not exist and they do not work, I felt that when I did not do something good, I felt bad, Now your life. Now, you know the way. Are you afraid? Yes. Yes. I believe that I will not pass through the end. Much more. I am trying. I am making an effort, of course. You passed, passed. Turn back. You do not know. Everything is played again from the beginning. What do you say now, last second, where I can make the worst mistake on the last day of my life or the best move of my life. And I’m saved that you know. God knows. I had asked Papakostas at some point. I had told him, I learned that when you die during the resurrection period you go to Heaven and I tell him it’s good that I don’t have to go through the customs. God knows who takes that day of theirs. A friend of his, an airian, told him the apostle is an accountant, he says apostles, you have an accounting error. Let me ask you something about your angel friend, now you feel him, you know, I think we all felt him, I think we all felt him from the moment but I want to say that now every time you knew him, he looks quite like me, that is, he has about the same characteristics as me. That is, that’s how he perceived it more now than before, but maybe he took this form to be friendly to me. I don’t know what his form is, but he looked a lot like me. My own face, that is, as if it were mine or something. Very well known that before now let’s say when you think about something or when you do something and we all perceive our guardian angel. Now you make him an image. the image of him comes to you directs that now that the deacon speaks completely how can I explain it more strongly compared to before when I say the Holy Angel the Helper of my misery the calm Yes yes I relax like all of us I think and what you asked me when you invoked and now in life if you invoke the Virgin Mary do you have the courage to invoke her or you are not you are in the wrong place and you are where you pray to the Virgin Mary you feel good. The same is in heaven the same thing. Only there there is no choice and there is the Virgin Mary or the other you choose and there is no such autonomy to decide where we want to be. Vitaria just asks now that you say the Holy Angel you feel that you say it I answer that it sees you and you see him. It is not so theatrical. It is very terrible afterwards. It is very how should I tell you you are ashamed. You are allowed it is not so theatrical that you imagine it because he again deterrence here is what you said that you did not reclassify them mothers deterrence I knew what I have done we know in the end as much as we all know we always know always know what we do wanting to believe it and wanting not to know what we do there is a voice inside that always tells us the right thing regardless of whether we bury it or sweep it under the rug Like all of us I am nothing different. Like all of us when the going gets tough. Yes. Please. The biggest fear was because you saw hell and you are afraid they will put you over there for abandonment. No. The greatest fear is not being close to God. The greatest fear is not being close to God. Not feeling God. Then hell begins. As long as you are with God, you are not afraid. You say, “Lord, have mercy,” and everything falls away, including your soul and your problems, and that’s how it happens in life, I think. And the same thing happens here. Nothing changes. We experience the same thing here in his church, his church will be alive. Christ is alive. He will be resurrected. We will all be resurrected. And oh, and what I said, that I understood about the Resurrection, that man is not satisfied if he does not have a body. He is not a spirit. He wants to have unity. You want to be collected. You want to snuggle. You want to withdraw. You want to talk. You want to be someone. That’s it. That’s why they made us misunderstand why Christ gives us the body. We need it. We can’t live without it. We’ve learned with it. But it’s good. We have it. We want to be someone. To have some volume, some size, somewhere to exist a stigma to experience it all. There are equals over there in the profiles I would say there are meanings. They think things or just No, no, no. Nothing exists. There is nothing. You are happy. You are you are a king. You are a king. You are a king. You don’t have problems. Everyone else can only give you joy and something new. Nothing else. Like when you went through hell you didn’t see people burning. But they felt the heat that they were burning and they were alone. They were completely alone. They didn’t communicate with each other. That was the torture. She was alone and she screamed as I rolled her in the hospital and that’s what the father said. That’s exactly how they sank and this continues forever. Not that the in fact something else in the door a little bit to frogs. And you asked yourself before apostle what do you think might be the greatest sin that you do not pass and here you gave the answer selfishness selfishness has many expressions It can be asthma, it can be synarchy, it can be arrogance, azonia or selfishness is for me after I have become 56 years old, when you do not do the will that God says in your soul and you do your own will. And it is either carnal or anything in all our sins. Exactly. That is, in essence the opposite of what Christ said when he said to do the will of my heavenly father. How can you live then? You did not enter, you did not go to the monastery. You live. Now do not make me tremble any more. Believe in the light that illuminates and sanctifies all people. We have come into the world. You have been marked by the light of your face. This is the body of light. The works of your commandments have been interceded for you, your holy mother and all your saints. Amen. We pray for the sake of our holy fathers and Jesus Christ our God. Have mercy.