I was an atheist I died and went back to the morgue

I was an atheist and I cursed God a lot and terribly I lived in debauchery and

fornication and I was dead on earth but the merciful God did not let me perish but

led me to repentance in

1962 I got sick with cancer and I was sick for many years I did not lie down

although I worked and treated doctors hoping to find a cure for the

last 6 months I had completely emaciated so much that I could not even drink water to drink

as soon as I drank it I immediately vomited then they took me to the hospital and because

I was very energetic they called a professor from moscow and they decided to

operate on me as soon as they opened my abdomen I immediately

died my soul came out of the body and he was standing between two doctors and I

with great fear and he was looking at my disease

my whole stomach and intestines were affected by cancer I was standing and

thinking because there are two of us I had no idea that there is a soul the communists

inflated us and taught us that the soul and god do not exist that this

is only an invention of the priests to deceive the people and keep them in

fear of something that does not exist I see myself standing and I see him

again in the operating room they took out all my

entrails and they were looking for the finger but there was only pion

everything was damaged and broken nothing she was not healthy the doctors then

said she has nothing to live for I watched everything with great fear and terror and

again I was thinking how and from where are the two of us standing and at the same time I am

lying down the doctors then returned my organs just as they said that

my body should be given to the new specialist doctors for teaching

and they took it to the dissection and I went to them and all the more

puzzled as to where the two of us are there they left me lying naked covered up to the

height of the chest with a sheet after that I see that my brother came and

brought my little son he was six years old and his name was andru ka andreas that is

my son approached my body and kissed me on the head he started crying and

saying mommy mom why did you die I am too young how will I live

without you I have no father and you died I then hugged him and I kissed him

but he didn't feel it nor did he see it nor did he pay attention to me but

he was looking at my dead body I also saw how my brother was crying after that

I suddenly found myself in my house my mother in law from my first marriage came

my mother and my sister my first husband I left him because he believed

in god then the distribution of my things began I lived richly and

luxuriously and I got all this with injustice and prostitution my sister

started to take away the best of my things while the mother-in-law asked to

leave something to my son the sister didn't give anything but in addition she started to

scold the mother-in-law saying this child is not from your son and you

are nothing to him after that they went out and

closed the house my sister took with her a big bag of things while

they were arguing about the things I saw around us dancing and rejoicing

devils suddenly I found myself in the air and I see as if I am flying in an airplane

I feel that someone is holding me and that

a city was rising naol then I see that the city disappeared it became

dark after that light began to come again and at the end it

completely illuminated the light was very strong and I could not see it I was placed on

a black plate of 1.5 m size I saw trees with very thick

trunks and beautiful variegated foliage among the trees there were

houses and indeed they were all new but I didn't see who lived in them in

this valley I saw lush green grass and I thought

where would I be now if I am on earth then why are there no

businesses factories or other buildings here because there are no roads or

transportation what is this place without people and anyway who

lives here a little further I saw walking a beautiful tall woman in royal

dresses under which you can see the on her toes she walked so

lightly that not even the grass would bend from her feet a

young man who was as tall as her shoulders was walking up to her he had his face hidden with

his hands and for something he was crying a lot and begging bitterly but why didn't he

i could hear i thought he was her son and

i protested inwardly because he doesn't feel sorry for him and he doesn't

core note from everything it seems that this young man was a guardian angel

of this dead woman here we also see how the holy angels care

about us and our souls but we don't see it further it seems

that this request is unfulfilled if death finds us sinners and

unrepentant so we continue when they approached me the young man

fell at her feet and began to plead with her more loudly and

wailed and asked her for something she answered him something but I could not

understand what when they approached me I wanted to

ask her where I was at that moment this woman crossed her arms on her

chest raised her eyes to heaven and said sir where is she going

like this I then trembled and just now I understood that I had died that my soul

was in heaven and my body she stayed on earth then I began to weep and

wail and I hear a voice saying return her to earth for

her father's good deeds another voice answered I was tired of

her sinful and corrupt life I wanted to wipe her off the face of the earth without

repentance but she begged me for her father show her the place

she deserved I was immediately in hell then

they started to r up to me terrible glowing snakes with

long tongues spewing fire and other disgusting filth the stench was

unbearable these snakes coiled around me and at the same time from somewhere

appeared worms as thick as a finger with tails ending in

needles and hooks these entered all my open parts ears eyes

nose etc and so they tortured me and I screamed not with

my voice but there was no nowhere neither help nor mercy from

anyone there I saw how the woman who died from abortion presented herself and

began to beg the lord for mercy he answered her you on earth did not

recognize me you were killing the children in your womb and moreover he told

people you should not give birth to children children are unnecessary

to me they do not exist there are no unnecessary things in me there is everything and

for everyone enough in me the lord said I gave you the disease to

repent but you cursed me until the end of your life and you didn't

recognize me and for this reason I don't recognize you as on earth you lived

without god so here you will live suddenly everything changed and I

somewhere forced the stench disappeared disappeared and the strong smell disappeared and I suddenly saw

my church that breathed the gate and out of it came the

priest dressed in in white he was standing with his head bowed and some voice

asked me who he is I answered our priest you said he is

a charamofai he is not a charamofai but a real

shepherd he is not a mercenary he knew that although he is a small

ordinary priest he serves me know even this if

he does not read you the prayer of confession I will not

forgive you then I began to plead sir return me to earth I have a little son the

lord said I know you have a little son it's a pity for him it's a pity I replied

then he replied I pity you all and thrice I pity you all

I'm waiting for you to wake up from the sinful dream to repent and

come to yourself here now the mother of god appeared again the

godmother who earlier I called her a woman and I had the courage to ask her

is here in you heaven instead of an answer after these words

they found hell again hell now it was worse than last

time demons ran around me with catalogs and showed me

my sins and shouted you served us when you were on earth they started

reading my sins all my works written in big letters

and they felt fear terrible fear fire came out of their mouths

demons were hitting me on the head on me falling and sticking red-hot

sparks of fire and flying around me repulsed terrible

wailing and crying of many people when the fire grew stronger I saw

everything around me the souls had a terrible appearance he was crippled with stretched necks

and swollen eyes they told me that you are a companion it seems that it was

communists and you are obliged to live with us like you so we too

when we were on earth did not recognize god damn it and did every evil

fornication pride and others and never repented those who sinned but

repented went to church prayed to god had mercy on the

poor and helped those in need and misfortune those up there

that means in heaven I was terribly afraid of them

my words seemed that I was already here in hell all my life

and they tell me that I will live with them forever after that the mother of God appeared again

and there was light the demons fled and the souls who

were tormented in hell began to cry and beg her for mercy

rn queen don't leave us here they shouted we are burning mother mother of God and

there is not a drop of water she was crying and through the crying she said while you lived on

earth you do not recognize me and do not repent of the sins my son and your god

and I can not help you now I can not violate the wish of

my son and he cannot the wish of his father I only help those

for whom the relatives begged and for whom

the church prays after that we began to

rise

raising the crow of voices madam godmother don't

leave us again there was darkness and I found myself on the same slab crossing

my hands on my chest the godmother raised her eyes to heaven and began to

pray saying what should I do with her where should I put her a voice answered let

her hair go then the godmother quietly left her door was half opened so that

behind her I could not see anything then she returned holding my hair in

her hands and from somewhere 12 appeared carriages without wheels moved slowly and

I watched her the godmother gave me the hair but I did not realize

that she touched me I only heard when she said that the 12th carriage

has no bottom I was afraid to sit in it but the godmother pushed me to the ground

from her after that I came to my senses and consciously sat and looked it was m0

o'clock in the afternoon after that light I saw there everything in earth looked bad to me

and I didn't like being on earth but what should I do now I told myself to

my soul go to the body then I was in the hospital again and we went to the refrigerator

where the corpses were kept it was closed but I went

inside without any obstacle and I saw my dead body my head was turned a little

to the side while my waist was pressed by other dead people as soon as my soul

entered the body I immediately felt a strong cold somewhat they released my compressed waist

folded I clasped my knees with my hands

at that moment they put in the dead body of some man and when they turned on the

light they saw me bent over whereas they usually put all the dead with their

face up looking at me like that the nurses were scared and out of fear

they scattered they came back with two doctors who

immediately ordered my mind to be warmed with lamps on my body there were

eight incisions were made on it

three in the chest and the rest in the abdomen two hours after warming the

head I opened my eyes and only after 12 days I spoke in the morning they brought me

pancakes with butter and coffee for breakfast it was a fasting day but I didn't want

to eat and I told them I won't eat the nurses left again and everyone in the

hospital started to watch me the doctors came and asked me why I don't want

to eat I answered them sit down and I will tell you what my soul saw anyone who does not

fast on the days of fasting he will eat stinking and disgusting things that is why

I will not eat today as in all fasts I will not

go numb from the surprise one turned red then the other turned yellow and the

patients listened to me carefully then many

doctors gathered and I told them that nothing hurts me anymore then he started to

people come to me and apparently a lot and I telling everyone about wounds

the police started to drive people away and I was transferred to another

hospital there they recovered completely and I begged the doctors to

heal me as soon as possible the incisions they made on me learning on

me then they put me back on the operating table and when the doctors opened the

they told me why they operated on a perfectly healthy person then I asked them

what is my illness they answered me your intestines are healthy and

clean like a child's I told them that my eyes were blindfolded during the

operation but that I still saw my insides in the ceiling mirror

came and the doctors who performed the operation and when they approached said what

is her illness her insides were all destroyed and affected by

the cancer and now she is perfectly healthy I answered them the lord the god

showed his mercy on me the sinner so that I may even live and

testify to others that I saw and what happened to me that lord the god

took what was damaged in me and gave me the son I will tell everyone

until I die then they told the doctor you see how you are laughing and

he replied that nothing was healthy in you what do you think now

I asked him I replied you were born again by the supreme then I answered him if you believe

in him make your cross and get married in the church the doctor

blushed because he was a Jew he added please the lord and god

then I left the hospital I called the priest I used to play with and

attacked him calling him thank you, I told him everything that

happened to me, I confessed and he received the holy sacraments of Christ, I called him

and he blessed my house because until now it has been ruled by sin, pettiness,

drunkenness, mockery and fighting, now I am a sinful branch who am 40 years old with

the help of God and the heavenly queen I live a Christian life I

regularly go to church in his temple of God and the Lord helps me from all

parts of the world people visit me and I tell everyone what

happened to me I saw and heard with God's help I accept them all

I tell everyone what I was before what is happening to me now and why I am

now a believer may it be the Lord our God is glorified I advise everyone

to be careful how they live because there really is another world and another life and

that everyone will give a reason for the his earthly works and that according to them he will have

a fully just reward or punishment and even

eternally may you all live Christianly and by God, amen